i fell so sad..

y even my younger sis don understand me..i was deeply hurt...i work so hard ..i face dif customer..i experience the hardship wif coullegue bcoz of wat...i only wana giv my family member a comfortable life...i wan thm life hapily,no worries,n healty..tats all i don mind scarifise my laptop...i don mind eating maggi cup o bread..i don mind spending muc wif hamily..i dn mind working partime to earn mo...but y my sis don understand me..y she wana angry me bcoz of my bf...do i reaaly look tat weak til i cnt protect myself?am i wrong to feel some swet word frm outsiders? im so damn stupid...so damn stupid..i hate myself..i hate myself for cnt help family n owes make family worry..I HATE MYSELF..I HATE U CHEWMA ING......

blog seem to b only place i cud tel my feeling

lately family facing financial prob..n again i nid face it without crying o showing tat im weak..i tot i cud buy my laptop las weekend but bcoz of family i gave my laptop,my sony camera n my studies oso...finaly i cud make my final decission..afta 4 year degree,the money i earn afta tat still b rm2k..y don i continue my job thn i can do saving n standby anytime to face tings like tis time...i do not blame my dad at all...i choose tis way myself...it indeed a very tough way for me but i blif i can do it as long as i hold on myself steady...god wnt treat me so bad rite?

oso lately i meet a guy,he seem to b so good...of coz he hav weakness too..yup he is not well educated...he is not rich..but not too bad looking but mos important he care for me...now we 2 geting close..he admited tat he like me..yup..me too..but im still considering..my life now stil unstable...i don wan my relationship not lasting again..

eversince my family facing prob n i met tis new guy..i realise i lost place for me to complain...my young sis no longer talk to me bcoz she don like tat chasing afta me..she weird rite..but tis time i don wan let anyone afect my choice...my fren?yup i still contact wif thm but honest i really tink working ppl n studying ppl dn hav common topic..im seem mising in their topic...i tried ignore al tat..i tried i dn wana lost any fren anymo..my couleege?none of thm i cud tell my feling de...im all by myself now..u sure tink of the guy chasing me..yup we two r gud but i still don knw him wel..i don how safety i m to b bside him..tings seem to b like fairy tale..he apear in my life treating me likemy dream man...i owes wanted a person treat me tat way..i cant resist tat gud n sweet feling..god r u playing trick on me?is he real?is his heart true?