Saturday, June 27, 2009

to gal

u make me heart ache everyting u did...i was wondering did u consider my feeling when u post up ur blog?..did u consider my feeling of wat outsiders will tink bout me??if u really hate me,jus tell me,i leave i leave home n no one wil complain u,no one stop u frm everyting,i will leave home if u tink i spoil all ur good days..i would jus go without second word..actly all ting is jus fine, y u wan make it seem miserable..y wan tink tis n tat...did ah jiet do anyting wrong to u?don knw y u day by day make urself seem terible to us..u say frm now on u no blogging...

Saturday, June 20, 2009

attn to dav yeo..

im sorry,i am really sorry...i promise frm now on i wont tel o write anyting i felt sorry ,wud u forgive here, i teling everyone who read asking an apologise frm dav yeo on wat i did...

n to everyone tat join the few sorry for din atending all of it...but indeed i was bz working in las few week..SORRY

Thursday, June 11, 2009

left out...

sad...y i keep feeling im so left out frm my frens? ya thy r bck but i no longer been a proper invitation from them...even if i join i felt bad bout myself..i live in a dif world frm thm..thy study i work..dif stuf cant b compare...

to the organiser of the sorry if i ever did anyting wrong to u..but could u tell me y u avoid me so muc...can tell me whr my mistake is...we use to b good fren but y now u treat me tis way?im reallly really hurt..

im trying my best to cover watever i can ord...pls don say i change..i didn.but u ppl force me to...i never put away my fren,frens r frens,my bf is bf..thy both gav me dif feell.i really don wan to b treated like i change afta i got bf...honestly...if u ppl keep treating me tis way i hav no choice beside changing myself like u ppl tinking

Monday, May 25, 2009

sad sad...

i cried alot since last two heart pain like being slices...wats the prob wif me?wats the prob wif my bf? y u all don like him?? jus bcoz he is not well educated?o juz bcoz he spend mo time with me?wats the hell going on?my younger did sumting tat really make me disapointed,i only wana ground her for her good...tats wat u do to me las time...did u ppl tink of wat i felt las time?im was like her las time but did u give me chance to explain?till now u ppl stil don giv me chance to eplain...u tot i din know how bad she tell ppl how badly i treat her now?i knew it but im not the who dont wana talk to her...u ask her wat has her reaction when i firstly told her bout how i knew ah jiet?she not only show no interest but doin harsh on me?she told me she hate hearing me saying his name...if i say i hate u saying the ppl u like wat would u feel?n i wud say the same ting each time u mention his name...TELL ME WAT WOULD U DO?

u ppl tink i shud bear the responsibility for taking of family,rite? how old am i?how mature am i? how perfect am i?u ppl aspect me to bear this family without mistake?y don we exchange...i leave home n u cum bck n care...i really cnt do all wat u wan me to u ppl knw how bad i feel whn family got crisis?do u knw how bad it feel whn u nid to act strong infront of everybody?the only time i could feel weak is when im wif my bf...but behind me u ppl stil say bad bout him n me..wats my wrong?whres my mistake?

u ppl tot i hav no stress ma?i only didn show it.i don wana everyone felt pity of me...i wana u guys my family safe n happy...if i dn k u ppl i wudn wan to stay at home...if i don k i cud jus leave salary is jus enuf for me to survive outside ..i can no nid uc u ppl n saty on my own...but did i do tat?NO....U R MY FAMILY...I ONLY WANA SEE U PPL HAPPY...TATS ALL

n one mo ting....since i pakto i seldom hav the world of bf allow me bring my family out during my offday...even to movie we bring gal u blif we been together half year but our days of being world of two is countable by my fingers?u ppl r not around..u ppl din knw wat happen here..pls stop acusing u know how muc i hope u ppl would read this?but i knw its imposible coz im not ah not the youngest..u ppl don tink im always tinking the wrong sorry im really stupid n really not qualified being our sis..a sales gal will make u ashamed sorry...i cnt lead our younger sis a good not a good example at all..sorry

to gal...
im sorry wat i done to u but i really don know wat i shud do n wat i shudn do...u said i change?yup i no longer keep crying gal..know y?coz i don wana u ppl feel bad n sad for me..i nid to b strong then those weaker wud only learn n stand up..i no longer speak out loud gal...u know y?bcos we nid to b responsible of every word tat we spoke...i no longer speak muc..know y?coz u make me feel i always speak wrong ting...u make me feel my every words hurts sorry for not being a gud sister

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

frens reunited

haha...finally i wait for frens all bck i went dinner n yamcha with the other day...although its only five of us im happy enuf...but in certain moment i felt bad n left out as im no longer a student like thm...thy share their studies experience, haha...u were tinking i cud share mine too? lol...come on la who knws wats im facing n wat im doing in shop all time? outsides r only my mum n my bf knws lo...ok bck to main point...tat nite we dine in together at third mile thn we proceed to isabella...we play poker card...we chit chat thr...n lastly we hav photo taking..haha...let u c some

hey i update u again when i get my 21st bday pic ya...muacks...take k oh

Sunday, April 12, 2009

decision made o not?

las week i rcv call frm the swatch group comp...thy call up ask me for inteview...thy told me thy wil sponsor me if i pass in interview but i will b bond by the company 4 years...4 years working +2 years course...6 years...6 YEARS!!! i nid to b in kl 6 years..r u joking me?? my family is here,my bf is here...ya, i know wat were u tinking...i can come bck afta tat rite? no u wrong i only hav my gud future in tis industry in west m'sia...which mean once i step out frm kch i wnt b bck for a long time...heart ache lo....afta few day consideration,i gav up...i stay..i really don hav courage to face the world outside scared...y am i so weak??too cover up myself..i used my family n bf to b my excuse to sorry mum n dad..i realy don dare..can u ppl let me stay bside u..can u let me continue my work...i knw my salary not muc..i knw i cnt b like sis got lecturer o engineer title on only a sales girl but im really comfort in tis really bring me no bring a happy live..i don nid bring my stress hoe at all...i really love tis job...i knw i hav no choice except further my studies like sis..i owes wondering y u ppl wan me b same as sis,thy are capable,im not...i owes try to obey u all..i really hope i cud hav my own decision now..i knw u ppl wan tat is 4 my own good but do u ever tink wat i was tinking,wat i felt n wat i wan? i only wan a simple life..i do not nid high salary to aford my life..i only wan to hav happy days in all my life..

let me share sumting wif u...

Here is the differences between a businessman and
So....u can be a businessman or to be a fisherman........,
What do you really hope to achieve in life?
Read this story and you may find that what you are always hoping to achieve, you may be already have it.

There was once an American businessman who was sitting by the beach in a small Mexican village. As he sat, he saw a Mexican fisherman rowing a small boat towards the shore and noticed that the fisherman has caught a quite number of big fishes that is known to be a delicacy.

The American was really impressed and ask the fisherman, "How long does it take you to catch so many fishes?"

The fisherman reply; "Oh, just a short while."

"Then why don't you stay longer at sea and you could catch even more? The businessman was astonished.

The fisherman simply does not agree, "This is enough to feed my whole family?" he says.
The businessman then asked: "So, what do you do for the rest of the day then?

"The fisherman reply; "Well, I usually wake up early in the morning, go out to sea and catch a few fishes, then I would go back and play with my kids.In the afternoon, I will take a nap with my wife, and evening comes, I will join my buddies in the village for a drink, we played guitar, sing and dance throughout the night. My day was ever so complete and carefree."

The businessman does not agree with his way of life and offered a suggestion to the fisherman. "I am a PhD holder graduated from Harvard University, specialises in business management. I could help you to become a more successful person. From now on, you have to spend more time at sea and try to catch as many fishes as possible. And when you have save enough money, you could buy a bigger boat and catch even more fishes. As you go on, you will be able to afford to buy more boats, recruit more fishermen and lead a team of your own. Soon you will be able to set-up your own company, your very own production plant for canned food and do direct selling to your distributors.At that time, you will have moved out of this village and to Mexico city, and then expand your operation to LA, and finally to New York city, where you can set-up your HQ to manage all your other branches."

The fisherman asks, "So, how long would that take?

" The businessman reply: "About 15 to 20 years"

The fisherman continued, "And after that?"

The businessman laugh heartily, "After that, you can live like a king in your own house, and when the time is right, you can go public and float your shares in the Stock Exchange, by then you will be rich, your income will be coming in by the millions!!"

The fisherman ask, "And after that?"

The businessman says "After that, you can finally retire, you can move to a house by the fishing village, wake up early in the morning and catch a few fishes, then return home to play with the kids, have a nice afternoon nap with your wife, and when evening comes, you can join your buddies for a drink, play the guitar, sing and dance throughout the night!! "

The fisherman was puzzled, "Isn't that what I am doing now??"

So, what does one really hope to achieve in life, do we really need to work so hard in life ? What do you hope to accomplish in the end ?

afta reading n u know wat? i only wan to b like the fisherman..

Monday, March 30, 2009

update a bit when he is out station...hahaha...

today is ntg special but i jus wana update my blog...

since i pakto,i hardly could dear don really allow me to online muc..he scare i would meet sumone beta...of coz he din knw he is my last bf i would wan to hav...its ok 4 me if he don allow me long as he acc me mo...thrs ntg else i wud request...

lately im up to to apply in watch making matriculation...i don knw wether i got chance o not but im trying my luck n im decided...i only cont my study if i manage get into wacth-making matri...i hope i could hold last for this decision..its time for me to grow up make my own mum future is mine...i decide my own path...i knw u ppl r trying to b gud but pls be aware tat i hav no interest in local uni subj...

k la i update some pic let u c wat i do most of time

during cny

during tua pek kong parade...i join in the walk but im wearing my own clothes

haha..i nearly forgot so long i forgot recomend my bf to u...he is kenny wong

our first time..1st pic taken together...1st valentine together

k la...i update nex time ya..miss u all....