Monday, December 15, 2008

i fell so sad..

y even my younger sis don understand me..i was deeply hurt...i work so hard ..i face dif customer..i experience the hardship wif coullegue bcoz of wat...i only wana giv my family member a comfortable life...i wan thm life hapily,no worries,n healty..tats all i don mind scarifise my laptop...i don mind eating maggi cup o bread..i don mind spending muc wif hamily..i dn mind working partime to earn mo...but y my sis don understand me..y she wana angry me bcoz of my bf...do i reaaly look tat weak til i cnt protect myself?am i wrong to feel some swet word frm outsiders? im so damn stupid...so damn stupid..i hate myself..i hate myself for cnt help family n owes make family worry..I HATE MYSELF..I HATE U CHEWMA ING......

Monday, December 8, 2008

blog seem to b only place i cud tel my feeling

lately family facing financial prob..n again i nid face it without crying o showing tat im weak..i tot i cud buy my laptop las weekend but bcoz of family i gave my laptop,my sony camera n my studies oso...finaly i cud make my final decission..afta 4 year degree,the money i earn afta tat still b rm2k..y don i continue my job thn i can do saving n standby anytime to face tings like tis time...i do not blame my dad at all...i choose tis way myself...it indeed a very tough way for me but i blif i can do it as long as i hold on myself steady...god wnt treat me so bad rite?

oso lately i meet a guy,he seem to b so good...of coz he hav weakness too..yup he is not well educated...he is not rich..but not too bad looking but mos important he care for me...now we 2 geting close..he admited tat he like me..yup..me too..but im still considering..my life now stil unstable...i don wan my relationship not lasting again..

eversince my family facing prob n i met tis new guy..i realise i lost place for me to complain...my young sis no longer talk to me bcoz she don like tat chasing afta me..she weird rite..but tis time i don wan let anyone afect my choice...my fren?yup i still contact wif thm but honest i really tink working ppl n studying ppl dn hav common topic..im seem mising in their topic...i tried ignore al tat..i tried i dn wana lost any fren anymo..my couleege?none of thm i cud tell my feling de...im all by myself now..u sure tink of the guy chasing me..yup we two r gud but i still don knw him wel..i don how safety i m to b bside him..tings seem to b like fairy tale..he apear in my life treating me likemy dream man...i owes wanted a person treat me tat way..i cant resist tat gud n sweet feling..god r u playing trick on me?is he real?is his heart true?

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

hmmm.....family n frens gathering...

halo my dear......

hmm..my frens finally bck n i finally hav my holiday frm work,1 day off + 3 day leave....hehe...yesterday was my 1st day of leave...early mornin when to skul meet up wif fren n get my stpm cert...thn we when for brunch (breakfast + lunch) chit chating till 12 noon lo...half year separated really cudnt update all at once..afta tat when bck to my working place window shopin...syndy,kai liang n me got colour contact lense for ourself...n kai liang got himself a new spec oso..we all help him choose de..hehe..


kai liang wif his new spec..tats syndy nex to him.


tats wat i do while waiting 4 kai liang


tats sister irene nex to me..she is my nex door collegue..
we in sam company

today,mornin i was waken by my daugther..u knw la..my off day is their most happy day in a week coz i sure bring thm go play..i wud bring thm shopin o go frenship park o go swiming o anyting tat cud bring hapines to thm...today i brought thm to boulevard...c thm jump up n dwn really giv me undescribedalbe felling..its a joy in me seeing kids swet smile...no worry i will put sum up n share wif u....boulevard tis mth ord got christmas as their theme..let me share wif u..ya.....


tis is the idea of boulevard christmas decoration....

the pic below is the album of the day in boulevard..hahaha...









at nite i gather wif my fren..brought my sis along as i scare to drive alone in rainy nite...hehe...me,my sis, kai liang,syndy n her bf,zi ning n her bf..only tis few of us..zin ning n her bf cum late left early so no pic of hers....we chit chating n do our fav ting..gossiping...haha...tats us..sharing ma...but honest to say wif sum of the topic im spechles..uni courses..hmm..mayb wait nex year i join bck tat society life thn i cud get into their talks...



tats bing in padungan






final group photo...we r the best of all...rite guys?

Sunday, November 16, 2008

today 16/11/2008

hmm...today jus change my frenster profile layout,the theme..."ur silent hurts me so muc"
tis theme remind me deeply how i felt frm the very begining...cmk..i knw u wnt read tis but i wana tell u how i really felt...i nvr cheat on u..my feeling was true for u...ur silent really is a prob to me...honest to say i nvr give up on u..i will pray the best of evryting for u..i love u....take k...u let me go is equal to i let u go...

hmmm...wat else ho...now really waitng for my besfren all cum bck..i mis thm..wen ping bck...now wait aina,kai liang n syndy to b bck...i wan to mount climbing...i wan bbq..i wan go sing k...hmmm...so muc ting to do..don knw my 4 days leave enuf to use bo..hahaha...

haiz..mum bday cumin soon,wat shud i get for her?ang pao?bday cake?o gift suc as softtoys?
hahaha..jk jk...i dn knw la..suden run out of idea....

Thursday, November 6, 2008

take notice my vincent

haha...don keep rush me update ma...me got idea oso will giv u rush till don knw wan write wat lo....y donb u giv me ur site...i go visit...

Sunday, November 2, 2008

my history

hmm..today im her to tel u my love life...the very 1st time i feel dif of a guy is i was in f1..tat guy was my bus mate ...but ended up he like my godsister..haha..thn when im in f2 i hav a bf ...he is a very nice,swet n capable guy but afta a mth 2gether we broke up..i fell so uncomtable n pity of him...im agud gal at home..so i don dare cheat my mum n go out wif him at all...n for sure tats puppy love...afta tat i fall in love again wif my busmate..he is a big fat guy...bad in studies..but he is a very caring guy..he protect me all the tim altought i owes argue tis n tat wif him..since f4 i never ever forget him..he knew i like him but thrs ntg he can do as he hav a gf ord..al i cud is only mis him n guessing his day everyday..yaya..i knw im stupid falling for suc a guy but thr ntg i cud help frm faling...hmm..actly in btwn still alot of story but it migth b mo private ..heheh..so i will jus stop here..hahaha..take k ya..

Sunday, October 26, 2008

my f6 life....

once mention my f6 life i learn so muc thr...i get to knw how was the best skul was like,then i get to study wif boys (u sure tink im weird,no im frm gurls skul,tats y i say in tat way)
in thr my best clasmate was kai liang,syndy,joash,wen ping......lots mo..but tis few is d greatest...syndy is a fashion n swet gals..she owes update wif fashion stuf but yet oso cud do wel in her exam..while kai liang is d guy who sat bside me..he indeed a bookworm..he is smart but owes forget tis n tat in his working especially maths..haha..joash..hmm..he is my class monitor,a funy one,n he is a genius..oso the only one get band 6 in muet in my skul..isnt him cool..since his eng gud so his mandarin is badly spoken..so kai liang wud teach him mandarin,thn joash wud teach him eng...haha..so in btwn i got benifit frm both parties..learn both at once...but sumtime when our class hav freetime..all mos of our classmate wud gather round n chit chating..haha..in btwn u can hear yaun tat,thomas n siong lung mention cold jokes....thn if wnt knw fashion,ask lynda o jen ai,tis two gal cud turn u frm ugly duckling into a big beauty..whn everyone happy sharing jokes...u cud suden hear ppl asking ques of how to do tis maths ques..yes,no one else except jason wud do tat....hmmm whn afta exam we sure arange sum program to enjoy even just yamcha...me,kai liang, syndy,siong lung wud apear together..sumtime wud add on wif jason,joash,jen ai,lynda n priscilla..

the pic below is one of the gathering we went to...
venue:living room
date:30th june 2007



hmm..do we look like one big family?pls don recognise me,im ugly in tis pic



tis few couple r all my classmate in f6....



let u enjoy sum pic la..hmm..d pic below is taken during celebrating national day in skul.we all was force to wear natinal cloth like baju kebaya,baju kurung,cheongsam,o batik..haha





one whole class..





my PA teacher n me..she young rite?..hahaha




me n robin..he not my classmate..jus my bes buddy frm nex door..he is the one recomend me work in city chain




tis r my class walking fashion..hahaha






kai liang like b ppl lamp post de lo...hahaha







f6 indeed brougth me a lots of memory...im really happy in f6...thanks guys..i love u ppl the best..take k ya...

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

the begining of my life

my life started when i was born on 17 may 1988..when i was kids my parents pamper me alot,i nvr felt abandoned at all until my lil sis come to the world..i don rmb muc bout my childhood tings..one of the ting i rmb is my grandma pass away when i was in primary 2..n when im in primary skul..i don hav muc fren..i don hav any chinese fren coz im a poor student..the rest of the chinese r rich..so i mixaround wif bumiputra ..frm thm i learn bahasa sarawak n oso bahasa iban..i even can comunicate fluently in it...i only hav chinese fren when im in pri 5..her name..shu wen..she came frm semenanjung.. ever since she is my best fren til now but during f3 she went bck kl..left me alone here face my f4 n f5 alone..without her bside me help me in my studies..i badly done my exam n al ting r not rite..i lose my fren one by one..in f4 n f5 everyday i only go skul slep in class n do my own ting as i hardly catch teacher lecture...my life indeed empty without her...(im not les lo)



tis is my best fren shu wen

afta f5 i knw another bestfren named aina...she the one brougth my life bck to normal..she bring me along when im really lost contact wif my fren whom abandoned me..haha..im sure u felt i too "yi lai" my fren,rite?u cant blame me..in my family im im the 3rd daugther..i hardly get attention frm family..i hav 2 elder sis whom did really gud in academic...thn u knw la youngest no nid do anyting cud get atention..so ngam aina family oso 4 sisters n yet she in position 3..altougth she less share her ting but she indeed a gud listeners..she able bring my moody mood away..coz i nvr seen her in bad mood b4..she nvr cry..she teach me to b strong..teach me to smile al the time..she teach me to b optimistic..i really duno wat else can i ask frm her..yup in btwn i got get mad of her whn she 1stly start relationship wif her bf..i even said thy wnt last long..im really sorry..i din mean to hurt u..i was out of my mind..sorry aina..n thanks 4 owes b thr 4 me..



aina in yellow shirt


*hmm...i tink i continue my f6 life story in nex post


Tuesday, October 21, 2008

21-10-08,my day...

today migth b a day which is not unique for others but it do...today its d 3rd mth i join bck city chain...afta cut off al the one mth holiday i had join city chain for 7mth..time really pases really fast...i wonder how i pass my days all tis while...i been trougth the warm welcome frm my coullegue,the strugling of achieve our sales...afta went bck i been through the reall reality of working life..i heard the worst critisizing of me..faces good n oso complain full customer..i learn a lot in city chain...a working experience whr i finally knw wats a working life is...
today my oficer n company oficer came,i only been complain one ting...tats is my makeup,my officer say is too light..gosh im been using tat way of makeup all tis while..wan me change is really a dificult one 4 me too learn..memories all the watches is not a prob but makeup is a big prob 4 e...gosh...wat shud i do oh????

Saturday, October 18, 2008

halo..everyone


halo,guys nice too meet u all n thx 4 wiling to spend time reading it..my first time bloging in blogger page...frm now on i will try write down all my history n present tings tat happen to share wif u all...hope u ppl wnt b bored wif it..haha...