halo..finnaly bck...

hmmm.its been ages i din blog ord ...haiz...pakto lo make me no time..sometime still got lil regret geting into tis relationship...yup its been 3 mth im wif himm seem short but we seem knw each other very long...i hardly hav time online bcoz he don really like me online lo..today is bcoz he go play basketball..dump me aside i baru got time blogging...but actly very unhappy lo..we surpose to meet tonite but he din...he rather to play his basketball...sien liao....diet really important thn me meh...ahhh.....sien ah....

tpday is a bored day...

today i work mornin shift..the unlucky me got diahorea..in n out toilet a couple of time lo...humph...when i wan go home my dear wasn at his counter so i left without seeing him..he..haiz..say me bosim lo...im still rmb get him a starbuck b4 i go home n rest..so sad to hear tat..but afta hering my explaination..he apologize 4 saying me..thn he surposely acc me go shoping but don knw y ended up put me aeroplane...bopian get my family backup..haiz...hope tml he cud acc me lo...i miss him so muc...btw jus nw i bought 2pcs of cny clothes lo..one sexy one cute cute de..haha..haiz now 12am liao y he still not home yet..making me follow cnt slep nia...faster call me liao..am sleppy ord..

1-1-2009 happy new year...

wow...so fast tat a year has past..everyting seem to b past ord..hmm..but my tis year christmas n new year is sumting dif..i hav my dear acc me gone through...we told my family bout it..my mum so far ok wif it..humph..glad tat evryting is fine...new year eve dear,me,mum,dad,janet,robert went steamboat together..its was a great one....afta steamboat dad n mum go happy hour while me n my dear go bbq wif my colleague till 1am..although we plan to hav own world but din success,we both happy wif ourselves..thanx dear dear..i love u so muc..im really lucky to hav u...

i fell so sad..

y even my younger sis don understand me..i was deeply hurt...i work so hard ..i face dif customer..i experience the hardship wif coullegue bcoz of wat...i only wana giv my family member a comfortable life...i wan thm life hapily,no worries,n healty..tats all i don mind scarifise my laptop...i don mind eating maggi cup o bread..i don mind spending muc wif hamily..i dn mind working partime to earn mo...but y my sis don understand me..y she wana angry me bcoz of my bf...do i reaaly look tat weak til i cnt protect myself?am i wrong to feel some swet word frm outsiders? im so damn stupid...so damn stupid..i hate myself..i hate myself for cnt help family n owes make family worry..I HATE MYSELF..I HATE U CHEWMA ING......

blog seem to b only place i cud tel my feeling

lately family facing financial prob..n again i nid face it without crying o showing tat im weak..i tot i cud buy my laptop las weekend but bcoz of family i gave my laptop,my sony camera n my studies oso...finaly i cud make my final decission..afta 4 year degree,the money i earn afta tat still b rm2k..y don i continue my job thn i can do saving n standby anytime to face tings like tis time...i do not blame my dad at all...i choose tis way myself...it indeed a very tough way for me but i blif i can do it as long as i hold on myself steady...god wnt treat me so bad rite?

oso lately i meet a guy,he seem to b so good...of coz he hav weakness too..yup he is not well educated...he is not rich..but not too bad looking but mos important he care for me...now we 2 geting close..he admited tat he like me..yup..me too..but im still considering..my life now stil unstable...i don wan my relationship not lasting again..

eversince my family facing prob n i met tis new guy..i realise i lost place for me to complain...my young sis no longer talk to me bcoz she don like tat chasing afta me..she weird rite..but tis time i don wan let anyone afect my choice...my fren?yup i still contact wif thm but honest i really tink working ppl n studying ppl dn hav common topic..im seem mising in their topic...i tried ignore al tat..i tried i dn wana lost any fren anymo..my couleege?none of thm i cud tell my feling de...im all by myself now..u sure tink of the guy chasing me..yup we two r gud but i still don knw him wel..i don how safety i m to b bside him..tings seem to b like fairy tale..he apear in my life treating me likemy dream man...i owes wanted a person treat me tat way..i cant resist tat gud n sweet feling..god r u playing trick on me?is he real?is his heart true?

hmmm.....family n frens gathering...

halo my dear......

hmm..my frens finally bck n i finally hav my holiday frm work,1 day off + 3 day leave....hehe...yesterday was my 1st day of leave...early mornin when to skul meet up wif fren n get my stpm cert...thn we when for brunch (breakfast + lunch) chit chating till 12 noon lo...half year separated really cudnt update all at once..afta tat when bck to my working place window shopin...syndy,kai liang n me got colour contact lense for ourself...n kai liang got himself a new spec oso..we all help him choose de..hehe..


kai liang wif his new spec..tats syndy nex to him.


tats wat i do while waiting 4 kai liang


tats sister irene nex to me..she is my nex door collegue..
we in sam company

today,mornin i was waken by my daugther..u knw la..my off day is their most happy day in a week coz i sure bring thm go play..i wud bring thm shopin o go frenship park o go swiming o anyting tat cud bring hapines to thm...today i brought thm to boulevard...c thm jump up n dwn really giv me undescribedalbe felling..its a joy in me seeing kids swet smile...no worry i will put sum up n share wif u....boulevard tis mth ord got christmas as their theme..let me share wif u..ya.....


tis is the idea of boulevard christmas decoration....

the pic below is the album of the day in boulevard..hahaha...









at nite i gather wif my fren..brought my sis along as i scare to drive alone in rainy nite...hehe...me,my sis, kai liang,syndy n her bf,zi ning n her bf..only tis few of us..zin ning n her bf cum late left early so no pic of hers....we chit chating n do our fav ting..gossiping...haha...tats us..sharing ma...but honest to say wif sum of the topic im spechles..uni courses..hmm..mayb wait nex year i join bck tat society life thn i cud get into their talks...



tats bing in padungan






final group photo...we r the best of all...rite guys?

today 16/11/2008

hmm...today jus change my frenster profile layout,the theme..."ur silent hurts me so muc"
tis theme remind me deeply how i felt frm the very begining...cmk..i knw u wnt read tis but i wana tell u how i really felt...i nvr cheat on u..my feeling was true for u...ur silent really is a prob to me...honest to say i nvr give up on u..i will pray the best of evryting for u..i love u....take k...u let me go is equal to i let u go...

hmmm...wat else ho...now really waitng for my besfren all cum bck..i mis thm..wen ping bck...now wait aina,kai liang n syndy to b bck...i wan to mount climbing...i wan bbq..i wan go sing k...hmmm...so muc ting to do..don knw my 4 days leave enuf to use bo..hahaha...

haiz..mum bday cumin soon,wat shud i get for her?ang pao?bday cake?o gift suc as softtoys?
hahaha..jk jk...i dn knw la..suden run out of idea....